A first post. Those are always so telling, and I have a lot to tell. I've spent the last three years in a whirlwind of pain, lust, addiction, greed, anger, and everything in between. I've done things I never thought I'd do, crossed lines I swore I'd never cross, and paid dearly, mentally, emotionally, and monitairly than I ever thought possible. Then again, when you live the fast life, eventually, it catches up with you. Play with a flame, and you're gonna get burned, it just depends upon how strong you're willing to be after that flame sets you ablaze. As for me, I'm just now trying to figure out how to put the shattered pieces of my psyche back together, get my shit together, and go on with life, as I knew it before everything happened. Will I get it right? Who knows? But here's my journey, into the darkness, and into the light.
“You'll be sick or feeling troubled or deeply in love or quietly uncertain or even content for the first time in your life. It won't matter. Out of the blue, beyond any cause you can trace, you'll suddenly realize things are not how you perceived them to be at all. For some reason, you will no longer be the person you believed you once were. You'll detect slow and subtle shifts going on all around you, more importantly shifts in you. Worse, you'll realize it's always been shifting, like a shimmer of sorts, a vast shimmer, only dark like a room. But you won't understand why or how.” ― Mark Z. Danielewski, House of Leaves
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